How Do I Learn To Love Myself When I Know That All My Choices Have Created The Pain I Am In Now?
By: Sabrina Reber
QUESTION: How do I learn to love myself through a dark time when everything in me says it is my fault, I am responsible for the choices I have made and I don't feel so good right now. How do I find love in the ugliness?
ANSWER: We have all hurt others and used our power in a way that goes against the universal laws of loving creation. We were "learning" through karma, pain and difficulty and had a lower state of consciousness at the time. We simply did not know any better. Jesus's quote of "Forgive them father, they know not what they do" is very relevant, because we truly did not know what we were doing. We were stuck in duality with a very low state of consciousness simply reacting from our own source of inner pain and spreading it to everyone we came into contact with. However, when we begin to awaken we begin to "SEE" our behavioral patterns. This is part of the spiritual eye opening, and the chakra system expanded. "For once we were blind but now we see". This is a very positive sign of your soul's ascension! You are starting to see your behavioral patterns and willing to accept responsibility for your life and the way you treat others. This is huge ~ give yourself a big hug for having the courage to face your self and the life you have created. As you face God/ddess, you face the self! During this time period it is very common to be filled with guilt. Guilt does have value, in that it teaches us "how not to be". Guilt is a very low vibrational feeling.....it does not feel good so it is imperative for you to feel your guilt, but at the same time work on forgiveness of the self. Please do not hold onto your guilt, it will hold you back from your soul’s ascension. Honor your self and your soul’s evolution...negative soul lessons are just as valid as positive ones.....and remember, every soul interaction has a lesson for BOTH souls involved. In fact, it is oftentimes our pain that is the catalyst for transformation. Most people who choose to ascend go through so much pain in their lives they finally decide ~ “I have had enough! I am going to choose something different.....I am ready to raise my consciousness and grow myself ~ I want to learn my lessons through LOVE now.” However, in order to move beyond our karmic lessons we will need to clean up our soul, and heal the negative energies within us that wanted to create painful circumstances for ourself and others. Once negative energy and karma has been created within our being, it doesn’t just go away. We will have to raise the negative energy to a higher vibration....this is oftentimes called soul alchemy, where we turn our darkness (lead) into the light (gold) of the christ/buddhic consciousness. Unfortunately, as we alchemicalize the soul we may go through a “dark night of the soul” where all our negativity begins to rise to the surface. This is a very uncomfortable time period, where the old negative ego begins to be transformed by the higher self. The ego feels like it is dying....it feels lost, confused, uncertain, doubtful and is full of pain from its negative creations. During this time period you must commit to your transformation through positive thinking, the spiritual practice of meditation, PRAYER, self forgiveness and self love ~ fully allowing your self to surrender to your higher soul. Self love and forgiveness are imperative to your transformation, and it will require great EFFORT! Daily meditation will help you tap into the loving vibrations within your self, and also looking your self in the mirror and telling your self how much you love your self. Look in your EYES repeating “I Love You”, I Love You, I Love You.” This may be hard in the beginning, you will cringe and you will not want to look in your eyes.....but as you do this exercise, you will begin to soften. You will eventually return your self to the LOVE that you truly are.....you just need to dissolve all the static interference in your energy field that blocks you from fully tapping into your truth. In addition, energy work through reiki, dna theta healing and pranic healing will help you clear the blocks. Energy healers are invaluable, and they are located all over the world. Do a computer search and find one you resonate with. Many are also able to do “distant healing” and it is just as powerful as an in person session. Yoga, Running, Fast walking or any kind of exercise also helps us move energy in the energy field so we can release the painful blocks that are stuck. ~Sabrina
I also suggest the “Raise Your Vibration” book as a source of support and guidance. It will help you understand the ascension process, and how your chakra system works, in addition to helping you stay committed to your ascension journey ~ which is full of ups and downs. You can purchase the book off of the “How To Raise Your Vibration” Facebook page. Look for the "SHOP" button next to the amount of people who LIKE this page. Click the link below to be taken to the Facebook page: PURCHASE BOOK